Yassy's

Sep 14, 2007

such a stupid thing to do! dear bloggie. im back. today is the day that i'd most regretted ever! it's not related to family or schools, its about him. dulu, aku ade prinsip tentang diri aku sendiri, bahawe, i will not entertain any guys or to have any relationships with any guys. the reason? let's just keep it to myself. it hurts alot. i don't wish to write it here though. when i recall back, i wonder how stupid am i to fall in this trap! how easy i am to actually kinda fall for someone. why am i that stupid?? why didn't i keep to my prinsip of life towards boys? why is my hands that itchy to type my number on the keyboard and gave it to him!!! urgh!!! now, i felt like i want to avoid him, but there was one time he says that he already has hopes for me. this is all not his fault because the fault is actually mine!!! is it too late for me to avoid him? but, if i did, i will dissapoint him. and the major part was, i had broke his heart! oh my goodness! what am i supposed to do? make him hate me? but then, he will be my enemy then... oh my god. dilemma and confusion really surrounds me. he is a kind and caring person, but, i'am not the right one for him. why must this situation took place? why? urgh!!! isn't it good and wonderful if he understands what i felt right now? a big sigh... till next time bloggie. lurvesss: yasmin