Yassy's

Oct 30, 2007

dear bloggie. yesterday he is online on the msn. we chat. then, suddenly came out a topic about himself and me confessing to each other. he sais dat he miss me. missing sms-in me, chattin on the phone n all those stuffs. then, i told him the reason on why i left him. finally. when he asked me. after all those talking and chatting on the msn, he said dat i shud gave myself a chance on myself towards this bgr. then, guess wat i said? i replied dat 'ok. i shud give myself a chance, for myself.' then he said, 'to who?' to my surprised, i replied 'buat tk tahu pulak. to u lah.' i didn't imagined dat i actually said dat!! and, this, it is declared that i am his girlfren, and he is my boyfren! cud u just imagine dat? sumpah demi Allah, aku tk tahu ape yng aku tulis. in other words, i dun realised wat i typed. kenape dgn aku ni? senang sngat nk accept lelaki? he shows dat he was so the very happy to the max. believe me syaiful, i realli dunno wat i was typing. before we chat on the msn, i really realised dat i missed him so much. i duunnnowhy!!! tis feeling is so weird. i tried to forget him like hell, but i just cant. early in tis morning he sms-ed me. so early arnd 8 gitu. i woke up and not so shocked to see he was the one smsin me. he said dat he wants to talk to me. he miss my voice. i'm scared! shud i kol him or not? it's not dat so called scared exactly. but, nervous, nervous, and nervous. syaiful, i love u. but, im not ready into bgr! the day dat i typed n i said dat i want to be involved in a bgr wif u is not exactly wat i meant!!! i dunno wats wrong wif me. why did i typed the wrong things? what happened to my fingers!!!??????????? but, i love u. -_- lurrrves: yasmin