Yassy's

Jul 5, 2010

my grandma just passed away on last saturday night. even though i may not be very close to her as my other cousins, i felt deeply sad. really really sad. she was diagnosed with cancer a few years back. and i should say that she was one strong women that would never show any of her miseries or pain in front of anybody. she appeared to be very fine and healthy before her death. i would always remember those times that i had with her. every hari raya, she would cook my favourite dish which is not even related to one of the hari raya dishes. every year when i came, she would tell me personally that the dish was already prepared personally for me. i will definitely miss her cooking and even though anybody can cook that dish, it would never be the same with the one that was prepared by her with her very own hands. i never felt this much of regret in my life cause i never fulfilled her very last wish. that is to see me. i was damn busy on the saturday with school and tuition that i regretted it very much. i should just have left all that and see her. you cant imagine how i felt when once i reached the hospital, putting high hopes to meet her, and to know that she was already gone. forever. i cried like nobody's business in front of everyone. on that night, i went to aunt's house.i felt too sad and tired on that midnight, and decided to join the rest to read surah yasin for my grandma. managed to only sleep for 3 hours. on the next day, almost everyone cried alot especially the small ones and me. i cried the most when i pay the last respect to her and kiss her forehead. deep in my heart, i said sorry to her for not able to meet her at the very last moment in her life. i will miss her so much. i will miss my favourite dish that has always been prepared by her every year. although anybody can cook that, it will never be the same as the one that was been prepared by her with her very own hands. you will always be in my prayers.. inallilahi wa inalilahi rojiun.